Tuesday, July 19, 2011


We have one normal - two total.  One Day 3 - 7 cell grade 4 Polar Body tested and one Day 6 - blastocyst graded 2AB.  We have our consult with Dr. S to discuss what to do next.  The nurse said they would have liked to have seen a 8 cell, but mine was fine and I should transfer. 

I don't know if I have it in me to do another retrieval.  I wonder sometimes if we should just go the DE route for the first baby and save my stuff for second baby.  Is this weird?  I'm just so tired and want to be a mom and start a family.   

I never thought I would think or feel this way.  The genetic link is starting to become less important which I guess is a good thing.  Maybe I just need a vacation from all of this.  When will the decisions end... 

Monday, July 18, 2011

Any moment now...

I will be getting the call with my results any minute now.  I called to get my husbands blood results for plan B and learned that the results came in.  She said a nurse would be calling me back in a few minutes with the results.  I wonder what I will feel like?  My heart was racing on the phone, but now I'm calm. 

I went on the Plan B website this morning and they posted a new girl.  I haven't completed all our paperwork so I don't have access to all the information. 

If my results are bad I will immediately pay the deposit and try to get access.  I really want to cycle as soon as possible. 

At this moment I feel like I would be fine with things going either way.  Plan B offers a 70% chance of being a mom soon.  The CCRM plan offers my genetic link, but not a lot of certainty.     

Thursday, July 7, 2011


I'm beginning to feel anxious and emotional about our impending results.  We could get the call any day now.  We have next steps in place for moving forward with DE and I'm at peace with this course of action.  However, I would love to have a baby with my husband.