Thursday, January 26, 2012

New SART data is available

My favorite IVF website is - this is a great site to find the top IVF clinics.  I love the way they organize the site by age. 

I wish I had the information early in my journey.  I am more than confident I would have a baby today if I had been more informed.

Friday, January 20, 2012


I went in on Tuesday and I'm now at 5.  They will not allow me to cycle.  We are frustrated.   

Monday, January 16, 2012


I had the weirdest dream last night that I walked into the most beautiful church and everyone was praying for my empty womb.  I wondered how everyone knew right about my fertility problems right about that time I woke up - really weird.  I hope it means that someone is praying for me.

I go in tomorrow to find out my HCG.  Pray it's below 5.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

still waiting

I wonder if I looked back how many posts would title "still waiting"...

They ran my HCG on Monday and it is 7.  I need it below 5.  They wanted me to wait out this cycle and cycle in March!  I kinda freaked out and now they are allowing me retest on Monday.

Lordy, this is taking forever.  I'm living proof that it can take forever for your numbers to go down.  I need to remind myself of how lucky I am that I do not have retained tissue.  Having another D & C would have been just terrible.  I feel for anyone having to go down that road.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

On Schedule

Well at least something is...  My period started right on schedule.  I'm going in on Monday to check my HCG and hopefully we are below 5 so I can begin peeing on sticks next weekend.

I'm starting to get a little nervous.  It's a long time since we last had a egg retrieval.  I'm hoping I still have some in me that are good.

Our last ER was what 6 months ago which is a lifetime in the life of an infertile gal. 

Monday, January 2, 2012


I'm postponed.  I went in last Wednesday for the HCG and it came back 10.  I went in again this weekend and it was 11.  I'm trying not to be nervous about it not going down.  I had to go to a hospital to have it run on Saturday.  I'm still kinda nervous about retained tissue.    

I went to a New Years party and did not have a sip of alcohol because I didn't know if I would be starting the next day.  The hospital never sent the results to CCRM.   I asked 3 different people on Saturday to make sure CCRM received my results.  I had to drive back to the clinic on Sunday to get the results.  They would not give them to me over the phone and I couldn't trust they would send them to CCRM.

Sunday was a hard day.  You know how it is, you have to go into major planning mode to think about how the cycle will fit into your life for the following month.  I know I can't worry about work.  Starting a family has to be my priority from now on. 

I'm better today.  I had a good night of sleep and a nap today.  I guess my body isn't ready.  I hope everthing works out for a Feb ER. 

Thanks again to everyone for your encouragement. I don't post often because I will not post on my work computer , but I read all your comments and follow your posts. I'm hoping for all good things for all of us still in the trenches and all the new mommies.