Wednesday, May 18, 2011


I wonder if God sends me signs?  I have a second round interview on Monday.  I am considering another job to remove me from a stressful work environment with my current boss.  They are trying to remove her, but these things take time.  The new job would likely be a better title and more money.  There are so many people out of work right now who would love a second round interview.  All I really care about is being a mom.  I wish I could embrace my situation and just accept the good things that have come my way.  I wish I didn't care so much about raising a family.  I wish I cared about how much money I make. 

I'm also wondering if the new job will bring a different type of stress to my day.  I'm nervous about having to prove myself to a whole new group of people.  I don't want to look like a slacker when I take off for a week to pursue a baby.   

Monday, May 16, 2011

Week 1 - Day 11

Today marks a week on the Testosterone gel and estrace.  The Tgel smells like cheap perfume - after several days of smelling it, I've grown accustomed to it and it doesn't bother me.  I've noticed my legs feel like they are pulsating and I have a tiny bit of breast tenderness when I wake up. 

My acupuncturist felt my pulse pick up and the needles were zingery.  My pulse is usually sluggish.
I am watching what I eat, but I'm not being crazy careful.  No caffeine or alcohol.  I'm watching my sugar, wheat and dairy. 

I'm walking for 30 minutes in the morning and I'm going practicing yoga in the evening.  I've heard that you need at least 60 minutes of yoga 3x a week to see any results.    

I may start using an ovulation kit tonight to be sure I ovulated.  I want to know in advance if I might have a cyst issue. 

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Gray Hair

All of this IVF stuff is causing my hair to turn gray (actually white).  I found my first three strands.  They are about two inches long so I'm guessing my last CCRM experience cleared the way for their arrival. 

I started estrace on Friday.  I start testosterone on Monday.  It is better to apply it on in the morning after you shower.  If you apply it at night it can get on your sheets and some could transfer onto my hubby.  He does not need testosterone.  I'll keep you posted. 

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Blood - Take 1

I received my results today from my first blood test.  They ran a chem panel, checked my CBC and testosterone.  Everything came back normal.  My testosterone is 18.  They want it above 10 and under 25. 

Chem Panel - Chemistry panels are groups of tests that are routinely ordered to determine a person's general health status. They help evaluate the body's electrolyte balance and/or the status of several major body organs.

CBC - A complete blood count (CBC) is a calculation of the cellular makeup of blood. A CBC measures the concentration of white blood cells, red blood cells, and platelets in the blood and aids in diagnosing conditions and disease such as malignancy, anemia, or blood clotting problems.

I begin taking prometrium and start applying the gel this weekend.  My expectations for this cycle are low based on my last cycle with CCRM.  Some may wonder why we are returning after the fiasco from the last IVF.  I still believe CCRM is the best and we have put so much time and effort going down this path.  I have to make it to ER.