Tuesday, June 28, 2011


Time away from supplements, charting my calendar, watching my eating, exercise, limiting my beverages is awesome!  I still do not want to know the results.   

Although, I do find myself thinking about our 4 in Colorado often.  I wonder if they are boys are girls, if they look like me or my DH, their personality...  I want them to be healthy and normal so I can take all of them home with me.  I know this is not possible.  I had a dream we had normals - I hope my dream comes true!    

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


I haven't posted on my journey in a while.  Everything was touch and go with this last cycle.  I had a dominant again, but we were able to get it under control and we ended up retrieving 7.  Ann called the next day to let me know that 5 fertilized.  We did the CCS testing on Day 1.  Today is Day 3 and I called the embryology lab and talked to Terry and he let me know that 4 continued to grow and look beautiful.

This was not a good cycle, but we ended up with way better results. 

My best cycle over a year ago we had 12 follicles, 7 were retrieved, 4 fertilized and we tranferred two - HCG 22 - one frozen

I am so relieved and I'm happy that I have 3/4 weeks.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


I passed go last night.  I had my monitoring and everthing looks ok.  I didn't see a ton of follicles.  The tech said my largest was 9 mm and my CCRM nurse said it was 7mm.  I don't really care this time I just want to go from begining to end.  I was so nervous about having a cycst.  I slept like a baby last night after the stress of starting. 

My next monitoring appointment is on Saturday.  If all looks good, I'll be on a plane to CO.  I'm really going to take it easy this time and try to rest and sleep.  I'm already very tired. 

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Almost Here

Today is my last day of meds.  I will go in for my suppresion check on Monday.  I am hoping for no dominant follicles and for no cysts. 

I've been so emotional on these medications.  My dreams have been out of this world vivid and emotional.  I've been woken up around 2:30 am several morning unable to go back to sleep because of bad dreams or emotionally charged family/friend dreams - so weird. 

I feel like everyone around me is pregnant.  I can normally handle it ok, but not this month.  I feel life is just passing me by and I'm not living.