Sunday, April 29, 2012

Have I a story for you

I stopped posting because the impossible happened after our cancelled cycle - I got pregnant.  My numbers were the best yet.  We found out about the blood clotting disorder and then we learned I was pregnant.  I ran around completing extra blood draws so they could create the IVIg for me.  They started me on Lovenox after seeing the implantation site at 4 weeks.  I didn't even know they could find it so early...

I was in disbelief.

The IVIg was so easy.  A home health nurse came to my house and hooked me up to the IV with a shoulder fanny pack and began the 4 hour long process.  She checked my vitals every once in a while.  We shopped through magazines.

We went in for our 5W US and found the fetal pole and sac.  Everything looked good. 

I was in disbelief and did not want to share my news with anyone for fear I would jinx the whole thing. 

We went in for our 6w US and the embryo measured 2 days behind no heartbeat.  I continued having pregnancy symptoms.   

We went in for our 7w US and there was no growth and no heartbeat.  I continued having pregnancy symptoms. 

We had a D & C a few days ago. 

The doctor performed the D & C in her office with guided ultrasound to be sure she captured the products of conception.  She sent off the embryo for genetic testing.  We will find out the news within two weeks.   

We are thinking bad genes, but who knows?  I feel like I did everything I could do to ensure a healthy baby. 

Now we wait until my stupid HCG goes down. 

My DH wants to go back to CCRM.  I'm ok going back, but I want to change doctors.  Dr. Sch is great, but he is popular and busy.  Has anyone ever changed?  I wonder if it will make any difference? 

I think I'm still in disbelief.   


  1. What a month of surprise and then heartbreak - I am so sorry about your recent loss. It just plain sucks to have to go through another m/c. I used Dr. Gustofson (Dr. G) at CCRM and thought he was wonderful! He was the easiest to get in with and he is the baby wizard! I don't think you can go wrong with him. He also answered my emails very promptly and I loved my nurse. I wish you all the best and a very healthy 9 months.

  2. Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry that things ended that way. :( I wish you could have been one of those urban legends.

    BTW, I used the other Dr. S(ur) at CCRM and loved him!

  3. Oh no Goldie!!!!!! I was in disbelief reading this heart is so sooo sad for you...

    I think ALL the docs at CCRM are great. From what I've been told they all converse with each other.

    So sorry...hugs...

  4. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine what the past month has done to you. Praying for you! When will you get testing back?

  5. Wow, that is just craziness. I am so sorry you had to go through another D & C. I also had Dr. Gustofson. I just felt so calm talking to him during this high stress time. He always answered every question. I can' say enough about his bedside manner he is truly kind as he knows how if feels him and his wife had IVF to have their first daughter.

  6. I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine what a roller coaster this past month must have been for you. I wish it could have ended differently. Take care!

  7. I am so sorry. I've been in your shoes and it just plain sucks. We also had a surprise pg that ended in a d & c. If you need to talk, please feel free to email me. You are in my thoughts.

  8. I hope you were on time !!! remember never giveup !!

    Sheila Burnett